Welcome to my life...

So what's been going on with me? I'm staying busy with my two jobs with very little free time. Well since we're on the topic of jobs...
One of my jobs (my main job? actually it's becoming less and less my main job) is that I'm the youth leader (pastor, director, journey designer...) at my church. I'm paid around 16 thou a year to do this, which I guess is alright for part-time work. I've been working at the church (I used to say "my church," but not so much anymore,) for about 4 years now and I enjoy it for the most part. I enjoy the kids, but overall I feel like a failure as a youth pastor (I'm not really a pastor either, I'm not ordained or anything.) But anyway...

This morning my boss (I used to say "my Pastor, but not so much anymore,) comes in and hands me 3 pages which start out with a nice Valentine's Day wish. He then proceeds to say, "I'm writing you today in an attempt to clarify my expectations for you as you transition from **** (church name removed to protect privacy) into the next exciting season of your life." That next season? I'm moving in 4 1/2 months to Seattle for grad school.

On the surface this seems nice, he wants to help me transition, he wants to clarify his expectations of me, he wants to give me a job description so I know what it is I'm expected to accomplish. It really seems like he cares about me, except that I don't believe it. I don't believe that he cares about me. I don't think he's cared about me for a long time. I mean I think he did at one time, but that all changed somewhere. I think he cares too much about himself and his own goings on, mainly building our church to be like one of the mega churches (ala Willow Creek or North Point.) He's a business kind of guy, he wants the biggest bang for his dollar. He doesn't really care about people, at least those are my impressions of working with him for 4 years and knowing him for 10-12 years.

My big question is...he knows that I'm leaving in 4 months, so why am I getting a job description now? He wants me to "finish well here and leave at the top of [my] game." He wants me to finish well, but I guess he didn't want me to do well the last 4 years I've been working here. Why haven't we been meeting weekly for the last 4 years? Why hasn't he taken more of an interest in the youth group in the last 4 years? Why hasn't he taken more of an interest in me in the last 4 years?

I used to want him to disciple me like he promised he would, I used to want weekly meetings, quarterly evaluations, and a clear job description, now I just don't care about it all. I just want to survive and get out, not to thrive and continue on. I guess I'm numb to his new requests and requirements on me and my schedule. I just don't care. I'm not really that mad about all of this, I just think it's dumb and I don't care.