To Inspire a Dream...

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Shirtless men, L-shaped blankets, and banana bread...

I remember being attracted to members of the opposite sex at a very early age. In my preschool years, I had what I can only describe as a ‘crush’ on my babysitter’s daughter who was eleven or twelve years older than I. In the time that I stayed at my babysitter’s home, in between play I would sometimes see clips of the daytime soap operas on her television. In the soap operas, a shirtless man would often be depicted laying in bed with a woman in his arms. I do not believe I knew at this point why he was shirtless and a convenient L-shaped blanket covered her to her bare shoulders, but it was behavior that I would attempt to repeat with my babysitter’s niece.

While playing in the bedroom of the niece, we somehow found ourselves sitting on her bed. I suggested we lie down, and when we did I put my arm around her as I had seen the man on the television do. How long we lay there, I do not know, but my attempt at being a leading man in a soap opera lasted only until my babysitter happened to walk by and witness our rest. I was swiftly and forcefully told that my behavior was both inappropriate and unwelcome in this particular home. Years later I would again attempt this embrace, conscious of this memory and vowing that it would be allowed in my new home with my new wife. However, in the four and a half years we have been married, I have yet to find one of those L-shaped blankets.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

It is finished...

Last Thursday I had the pleasure of completing one of my life's goals. After approximately 8 months and approximately 4,500 songs, I have successfully listened to every song on my iPod. It's a pretty good feeling. Over the course of these months I have added songs, removed songs, and wished I had removed others. But it is finished. I celebrated by adding another cd to the mix, so it starts all over again...

BTW check out mewithoutYou's cd Brother Sister, I just didn't realize just how good they are.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

War of Dark

My stomach ties in knots
Afraid
Afraid of the dark
Afraid of you

Darkness sits just outside
Calling my name, playing my game
Waiting to engulf, eat me alive, tear me to shreds

You, darkness, sit just inside
More insidious, waiting to pounce
Midnight jaguar
Black claws, bloody teeth

I feel the dark clawing at my door
You beckon me, inviting me to enter you
And let you enter me

I fight knowing I will fail
The locks of my heart are not strong
Keys lost ages ago
Stolen

I fight
Strong enough to keep you at bay?
You answer with a smile, moist tongue licking black lips,
Oh yeah, you're strong enough. Come closer and see.

My stomach knot loosens

You enter me
Deep into veins
I enter you
You devour my heart

Engulfed in your pitch
I become you
And lose me

No longer do I exist
Drowned in a sea of noir
Red blood sucked dry
Veins course with tar

I am decomposed
My soul reeks of rot
Stench of decay
Calling you out of the shadows

Triumph is yours tonight
My soul raped
Slaughtered long ago

Yet continuing to feed you do
Incisors insatiable
As my stomach ties in knots
And the war begins again