I wrote this in my dreams, I hope you hate it...

hope you are my fleeting mistress
i lie with you in glances
experience your ecstasy in moments that last
far too short
and come far too little
you are my desire
yet also my fear
i dread you i love you i detest you i need you
i saw you yesterday
in the face of another
in the face of many others
in a crooked smile a misshapen face a contorted body
you tempted me
asked me to come and lie with you again
i fell for you once more
but only a touch a quick taste
then i left you for the temptress
less appealing more appealing less satisfying
reality is her name
complacency also
and numb
i cannot be with you mistress hope
it is too risky to get caught
to be found
to answer for you
you move me you tempt me you bring me to tears in joy
dare i make you my wife my companion my life
it is too risky to get caught
someday maybe
but today i flirt
i skirt
i
you
we
you will be mine and i will be yours
yet today you remain a mistress
my secret
this will not always be
i hope